It’s official. Not being in school is actually amazing. As a person who had been socialized through education since the age of 4, 20 years later, I am experiencing what working life is kind of like. It is quite fabulous.
I don’t know why it took me almost a month to realize this. Maybe the stress of moving, Step 1 PTSD, finding comfort in being in between two phases in life (ie a new phase of life), and the tension between belonging somewhere yet not quite belonging there…can confuse a person when so much freedom is before them. But, I am beginning to see the light.
LIFE WITHOUT SCHOOL AND THE GLORIES THEREIN:
When you go home, you can CHOOSE to keep working OR you can stop. There isn’t a test the next day or the expectation that you have to teach/present information (IQ!) or present a patient or…. medical school things (this does not include lab meeting).
I do not have to feel guilty about not studying. But, I should probably feel guilty about it and more time thinking like a grad student and reading papers. There is still the expectation for me to learn things, but the pressures are different.
Ironically, I have been cooking less in Boston than when I was a crazy busy medical student in Cleveland. Sorry to all who are missing my cooking snap stories. They will return when I get myself together! Boston food is just so good, and I’m losing so much money!!
So what fun things do I get to do now that the dog days are over for now…
- Eating lots of red meat
- Then try to compensate with a falafel sandwich
- Give your first presentation at a Daley subgroup meeting
- Go to the beach and stand in the ocean of course. Also a sandcastle competition???
- Then get rained and hailed on. But the ocean looked so beautiful!
- Have unplanned fun. Normally I would take shelter in a thunderstorm, but instead we kept on playing in the inclement weather. We, meaning my neighbors and myself! Much more fun than the laundry I originally planned to do…
- Eat Soul food
- Go to Grand Rounds at Boston Children’s! I actually love going to these every Wednesday! Someone went over cardiac physiology and MOA of digoxin as a review for audience. There was mild sx of step 1 PTSD, but I managed and missed medicine a little bit. I’m excited to go back but also excited to pause. Lecture was on pediatric poisoning and cardiac toxicity. Two PSA announcements: 1. Do not give babies your medicine bottles as a rattle toy or put your pills in the candy jar… 2. Marijuana (and not just the spiked ones with random stimulants) has been linked to heart attacks! Mechanisms still unclear.
- Check out new churches…that obviously care about social justice? I need to sit down for a moment…! In the morning, I went to Reality Boston which was nice, very hipster, man-buns included, and reminded me so much of Gateway Heights Church in Cleveland. Worship was on point! But is it too cool for me? In the afternoon (yes 2 churches in one day. #ExtraJesus), I went to Heart Change Fellowship in Jamaica Plain. The service was unorthodox in a cool way. We “asset mapped” and asked JP residents what they liked/didn’t like about where they lived. The aim of this exercise was for the church folk to learn more about the needs of the community they are a part of. The church used to be the heart beat of the community, but in modern times this has really changed. I think, perhaps, that we have lost sight of what a church is actually there for. They are not meant to exist in isolation. So this is cool!
- REGISTER FOR THE ASH (American Society of Hematology) MEETING. Which is better than Disneyland (preferably if you like hematology). I am so excited for this. San Diego in January! And, my program is paying for it! I’ve never been to southern California.
- Write a letter of recommendation! That’s right! For my Cleveland mentor! Mentors, be nice to your mentees so they can love you, and then write a recommendation for you when you need it. It’s interesting to be writing such a letter for someone in a higher position, but I think I did a good job–particularly because I think she’s a wonderful person.
- See a movie on at Tuesday night: Star Trek Beyond (Solid B+)
- Go to karaoke on a Wednesday night.
- Reclaim the role of movie Czarina. Back in College for a quarter my first year, I served as movie Czarina for my house (Chautaqua House now called Cathey). I planned weekly movie viewings and was a benevolent ruler. I look forward to reclaiming this position. Yes, I am crowning myself. Retro-Post Below!
There is a blessing in being able to rest, so when you have the opportunity to do it, take it!
And, if you don’t, make it happen. You will thank yourself later.